tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-64535524347235029432024-02-20T14:03:40.272-08:00It Is Not Just About the FoodUCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.comBlogger50125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-15693336716413739632014-09-13T15:32:00.002-07:002014-09-13T15:32:34.293-07:00End of Summer UpdateHello Friends,<br />
Well, 2014 has definitely been an odd year and not quite how I had hoped! By now, I would have been at my goal weight. My husband and I would have celebrated by going to Hawaii. I would have gone on a few work trips. I would have seen more friends and been in touch more.<br />
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However, it hasn't quite turned out that way. Continuing my 2014 of health issues, I had a sigmoid colectomy at the end of August. I actually thought the day wouldn't come, because I kept having one issue after another leading up to it. I had 5 horrible weeks of Vertigo and bad thrush from all the antibiotics I had been on. But, I made it to surgery day. All went as well as one would have hoped. The surgeon was able to do it laprascopically. I didn't lose my spleen and I didn't end up with a colostomy bag. The first 24 hours in the hospital I was miserable. Sooo much insane gas pain (they fill your abdomen with air). After that, just mainly it was the incisional pain. They kicked me out of the hospital 3 days later and I went home. I was happy to be home but then missed the 24/7 care by the nurses. My husband quickly got schooled on some things I don't think he ever thought he'd have to do. Poor guy. After being home for 2 days, I ended up going back to urgent care because the incision wound opened up. So, now I had an infection in the site and they would need to clean/care for it. This included now daily at home visits by the nurse to pack and change the bandage and more antibiotics. My incision is 6cm deep and these heal at 1cm a month. What????!!!! I had only planned on being off of work for 2-3 weeks! Ohhh heck. Yep, it could take 4-6 months to heal all of the way!</div>
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Well, we are now almost 3 weeks post surgery. Things are getting better, but very slowly. Up until this point, I had been sleeping upright in a chair! Not comfortable at all and awake half the night. Last night was the first night I was able to get into bed. Yay! It was like heaven! I've been doing more walking around the house. Laps. :) It's too hot to go outside. Freaking 100 F! But, if I do, walking to get the mail is exciting!! :) I've progressed from liquids and canned foods to some more fresh foods. The frustrating part of the progression of all of this is the bowels. They are no where near being "regular". And, I can't go back to work until they are. Come on colon! It will be a very happy day when I have a regular day. :) You will have thought I had won the lottery!</div>
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The nurse comes out now 3 times a week to do the bandage change. My husband's father is here helping out, so it has been nice to have a dog walker and some company. I've actually been tracking my food daily. Ha, go figure! Well, I mainly started because I needed to make sure I was eating enough calories and protein. It's been a good way to ease back into WW. I've had to step on a scale periodically to make sure I'm not retaining fluids, but so far it has been a 10 lb loss since surgery. I bought a bunch of new clothes right before the surgery (probably stress spending!) and I'm looking forward to wearing them when I go back to work. I'm actually looking forward to going to the gym too! What? Yep, I have major cabin fever! My husband laughed when I said I would just kill to walk on a treadmill right now! We always want what we can't have! And man, I am just craving pizza ..Mexican ....Chinese ....hamburgers ...Subway... oh hell, anything with substance and flavor! Strangely, I am not craving sweets so much. Well nothing other than my kryptonite of Sprinkles.</div>
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This experience is definitely teaching me patience, which is not something I have EVER been good at or enjoy. I now understand the meaning of one day (or one minute) at a time! It's so hard to feel 90% good, like your fine but then try to move and have the abdominal pain or go running to the bathroom. It's also teaching me to sit with feelings, cravings, etc. Because I have no option to binge or "go off plan". I picture my colon exploding and very bad things happening. Haha!! Maybe that's the visual I need to retain for the rest of my life when I want to deviate to not so healthy foods.</div>
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Well, that's where we are at the moment. My big adventure for the weekend is taking a shower. :) I'm sure soon enough this will all be a distant memory, but for now, it's 3:32pm on a Saturday and time for some cheese and crackers and more bad TV. Need a daytime Soap or Talk Show update, just ask me!!!!! </div>
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Thank you all for the beautiful flowers, thoughtful cards, and visits!</div>
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Cheers!</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-539902566613710942014-06-17T22:33:00.004-07:002014-06-17T22:33:27.591-07:00Long Overdue Post - Yikes 5+ months into 2014!Dear Friends!<br />
Wow, where does the time go? I can't believe my last post was over 5 months ago! Honestly, 2014 has not really gone the way I would have hoped for. :( Towards the end of 2013 I had really gotten off track with my weight loss goals and was in the deep darkness of peri-menopause and hormones, binge eating, and sliding back into a depressive state. I just couldn't seem to pull myself out of it and get things going again on the right track. I would take 2 steps forward and 10 back. I was up about 40 lbs from last October. Just when I'd get a few good days of eating and exercise under my belt, BAM - I was hit with the most intense severe neck pain and spasms. Over the course of 4 days it went from a pinched nerve to complete lockdown of my neck. I was in horrendous pain fueled by heightened anxiety that this was it...... It was all coming down to this - time for neck surgery and I was no where ready for this! I ended up at Urgent Care where they gave me some IV pain meds. I immediately had a reaction and started vomiting. I was now immensely uncomfortable. After several hours, they seemed to get it calmed down and I went home on pain killers and muscle relaxants. Well, the next morning Matt had already gone to work and I was dying in worse pain. I thought to all heck I had slipped a disk in my neck, as I had no movement. I called 911 and oh boy, that was not fun. :( When you are in considerable pain, an ambulance ride is NOT the way to go!! After several hours in the ER, they couldn't get the pain controlled so they admitted me to the hospital. I spent the next 3 days in the hospital on Morphine, Percocet, steroids, Valium, you name it I was on it. I was shocked how much it was taking to get rid of my pain. I finally was discharged and stayed home the next several days recovering. It took a bit longer to get off the Percocet then I had hoped. NOW I know how one can become addicted! It's not so much that I needed the pills anymore, it was when I tried to go without them I had horrible withdrawal symptoms - profuse sweating, massive anxiety, creepy crawlies on me, and intense frenetic energy where I just paced around the house for hours. Ugh!! Well, things finally seemed to calm down for a few weeks. I went back to WW, started to walk some, but still wasn't 100% committed. I couldn't shake this mild depression and hormone issues.<br />
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Until BAM, yep, another setback! At this point I was truly asking who the heck did I piss off?! I was having bad stomach pains for about 4 days and I finally dragged myself to urgent care over Memorial Day weekend. You see, I really do despise urgent care as I end up spending an entire freaking day there! When I went in, I thought it could perhaps be a bout of diverticulitis but I wasn't completely sure. The dr. immediately said "No", probably a female thing. So, they did an ultrasound and he said they had seen some mild fluid so it was most likely a ruptured ovarian cyst, and to go home and come back if it got worse. Well, 3 more days go by and it is WAY worse!! I can't take it anymore so I end up back at Urgent Care. I told my boss I would be in a little late that day. :) Well, they did a CT Scan and I get the wonderful news that not only is it diverticulitis but it now has an abscess!! I was mad!! I was soo angry that if this had been caught the first time, it most likely wouldn't have progressed to this. Well, now I was being admitted to the hospital (AGAIN!) for IV antibiotics and a possible procedure. I was soo not happy about this whole thing. I was in the hospital for 3 days on IV Levaquin, Cipro, and Flagyl. About Day 2 the pain was going away, but then the lovely side effects of the antibiotics massively hit. UGH!!!!!! They did a repeat scan on the 3rd day and saw that the abscess was improving so they weren't going to need to do a procedure. THANK GOD!!!! I was discharged on a liquid diet, antibiotics, and follow up appointments with a GI and surgeon. Yep, a surgeon. :(<br />
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I met with the surgeon and she highly recommended surgery. Not what I wanted to hear. This will not be a fun surgery (are they ever?!) I will spare you the details but they have to remove a large piece of my colon and re-hook things back up. If I don't have this done, it could mean having these diverticulitis episodes often and eventually it would become emergent and/or the antibiotics would stop working. I was also coming to realize myself that this was no way to continue living. Never knowing when it would hit, and when it did hit, being down for 2 weeks at a time. Soooo, the surgery has been scheduled for August 27th. I'm praying I can stay well until then. And praying even harder things go well. I will be in the hospital for a week and then at home recovering for 3-5 weeks and off of work. I'm hoping I can start working from home at week 4.<br />
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Meanwhile, I've had to re-focus my attention and efforts on losing weight, eating healthy, and exercising. It certainly hasn't been easy, as my body freaking hurts this time around. Lots of aches and pains. I'm trying to take one day at a time, stay positive, and not freak out about things. What good will that do?! :) Work is insanely busy right now too, so I'm trying to balance that load and manage my health. My biggest bummer is that I haven't had the opportunity to catch up with or see many of you lately!! Please know that you are always on my mind and I think about you often, even if I am unable to call or see you. I immensely appreciate all of your calls, emails, posts, and check-ins. Thank you for your friendship and it means the world to me!! My hope is that once I am through this, I can in-turn then be a better friend and share more in your lives. I'm ready for this 2014 to turn around!<br />
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I hope you are doing well and please drop me a note if you get a chance. I love hearing how you are doing and what is new! I certainly hope your 2014 has been a much better year so far!<br />
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Sooo, I WAS back. For a day. Felt great after all that yummy healthy food and tons of exercise, and then life.... The day after I got back I was walking the dogs and they saw another dog coming and went crazy. They don't like other 4-legged friends. I was off my game since I hadn't walked them for 2 weeks. Instead of standing still and letting them do their thing, and then get out of dodge. I tried to walk while they were doing their thing, we all got tangled, and I went down hard in the middle of the street. Right on the OTHER knee! I tell you. Someone does not want me to have sexy knees when I lose this weight. :( I cut up my hands, knee hurt like heck, but nothing seemed broken. I continued to sit there for 10 minutes to get my wits about me. I finally stood up and had to continue walking them. That was not fun. As soon as I got home I ice'd it and took advil. Thank gosh, it didn't turn out like the other knee, which I still (a year later) have not recovered from! Yeah, it was the casualty of Christmas Card writing! Hmm, I since a theme here. Can I skip December in 2014? So, this kind of put a damper on my continued exercise regime and the racing around getting all of Christmas done in 1 day. :( I sat on the couch for the next 24 hours nursing the knee. I mustered up the energy to do a little necessary shopping, went to a movie that had recliner chairs, and then headed to Christmas Eve. It was nice. Good food, so fun to see the family. The next day was just hubby and me! We have not had a Christmas Day by ourself ever, so that was nice. We ordered Mimi's Turkey Dinner and pumpkin pie and it was delicious. I was going to go to the gym the next day, but I'm not sure what happened. I didn't. Things started to unravel from there. Started having bad stomach pain and GI issues. This went on for several days. I finally went to Urgent Care, thinking it was probably diverticulitis (and would need antibiotics). The dr wasn't sure it was, but ordered tests, but no ct. Said if it got worse, to come back. Well, by Monday it had gotten worse. A whole lot worse!! The most horrific GI issues I've ever had and it just wouldn't stop. I hadn't eaten or drank anything in days. Finally, I went back to Urgent Care yesterday. The tests had all come back, and were negative. No parasites or e.coli. He ordered a ct scan. Actually, no diverticulitis either. What?! Then what the heck is going on. Well, the pain was most likely do to a ruptured ovarian cyst they saw on ct. Huh?! Didn't expect that one. Okay, but what about the GI issues? Probably just horrible IBS. Are you kidding me?</div>
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So, was told to start eating low fiber white stuff (rice, bread, bananas), take Immodium. I did. Oh my heck. 2 hours later last night I thought I was on death's door. Immense stomach pain and now the opposite GI issue. Good grief. I thought we'd be headed to the ER before long. It finally subsided after an hour, and I was able to lie down and go to sleep. Today, well today has been slightly better, but not hugely improved. This is so frustrating. I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow after my long and restful vacation! Well, at least half of it was. Thanks to hubby for being nurse, housecleaner, dog walker, and everything else on his few days that he had off! Guess I can consider that his pay back for the 40th bday Vegas disaster. :)</div>
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As for 2014 goals and WW, I'm taking it one day at a time right now. Not really eating "healthy" as I can't have much fiber, but I'm not eating junk or very much either. I'll get back to the gym when I feel able to, hopefully next week. But again, one day at a time for now.</div>
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Cheers,</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-81952694242017200502013-12-22T22:13:00.001-08:002013-12-22T22:13:17.081-08:00I'm Back!!! :) :)Season's Greetings Y'All!<br />
Oh my gosh it feels like it has been forever since I've been on here! Well, it has been. Basically Oct/Nov/Dec were up and down and all over the place for me. I had gained 15 lbs back (man, it sure doesn't take long!!) and was going into December not seeing any end in sight. I was really really having a tough time and I was binging again. Not good. But, I recognized that and knew I needed to take some serious action before it got too too much worse. At the same time, I realized I had 144 hours of vacation time of which 100 needed to be used by 12/31. So, I scrambled to try to find a wellness retreat/resort I could go to, to start breaking the bad cycle I was in. I really wanted to go to Rancho La Puerta in Mexico, but they were booked all of Nov/Dec. I then found Red Mountain Resort in Utah which looked great. Only problem was, it was difficult to get to (plane plus 3 hour drive) and it was going to be way too COLD!!! No way. I needed something semi not winterish. :) Then, I stumbled upon Shane Fitness Resort in San Antonio, Texas. I knew nothing about it, but I asked a lot of questions, and it seemed like what I needed. A getaway with structure, no Starbucks, no desserts, and lots of fitness!<br />
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Well, I just got back from an 11 day stay there! Wow, it was great. I really needed this and it did exactly what I needed it to do. I broke the binge cycle! The food was so clean and healthy, and fantastically good! Amazing how you feel when you don't put crap in your body. I ate salads twice a day with meals, tons of fruit, complex carbs, and good lean protein. No diet soda or sweets. No sweeteners or preservatives. Only natural stuff went into this body! I also limited the caffeine to 1 cup of coffee in the am, 1 cup of tea in the afternoon. And then 80 oz of water a day. And now for the fitness part. OH MY GOSH!!!! We did 3 workouts a day of 1-2 hours each. I didn't know I had it in me to do this! We did circuit training, boot camps, hikes, treadmill intervals, and we walked Walked WALKED everywhere!!!!!! The resort was HUGE. I have never walked so much getting from one place to the next. I opted for no elevators, and took the stairs the whole time. I was sweating so much, I had to shower twice a day and change my shirt twice. It was nuts! By Day 2, I thought I had been hit by a truck. Every muscle fiber in my body was screaming. It finally calmed down by about Day 5 and I wasn't as sore. I even did 3 miles today before I left to catch my plane! My biggest success is that I have never run before. It's so weird, but I don't know how! I've tried a few times and it feels awful, is weird, I can't describe it. I was mentally freaked out by it. The trainer worked with me, and by the end I was able to jog some intervals. :) Now, to try it on the treadmill which also totally freaks me out!</div>
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The Shane Fitness Resort was like having a private trainer and nutritionist by your side. The ladies were awesome! So caring, knowledgeable, fun, and just fantastic people. There was only 1 other woman in the program with me, so it was just all around great! There were also a few behavior classes, cooking classes, and clothes styling. The other woman had been 3 weeks. I will definitely consider going back next December again as the holidays are my most difficult time ever!! Oh, and I came back 6 lbs lighter and several inches smaller!! I FEEL GREAT!!! :)</div>
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While I was there, I read a really great book by Deepak Chopra called What Are You Hungry For. For anyone that struggles with weight or food issues, I cannot recommend this book enough! It has been a really wonderful read with lots of good, sound insights.</div>
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Finally, over the past several months I found a new OB/GYN and a holistic practitioner that specialized in women's issues. I had been having a lot of very weird random symptoms over the past year and after talking to a friend (thanks T!) and doing some internet searches, I was pretty certain I was in peri-menopause. I finally saw these doctors (who were great!) and they ordered a bunch of tests. Low and behold, I am very low in DHEA, low in testosterone, not converting thyroid well, still very anemic, and low in Vitamin D. Guess, what? Yep, in peri-menopause. Whoopie!!!!! Welcome to the 40's. I have a follow up appointment tomorrow with the doctor, so I will find out all the lovely supplements I must start. Anything to help me feel better and be able to lose weight.</div>
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Well, now it's time to crazily get ready for Christmas in 2 days. Yikes! Hope you all are doing very well. I may not be getting Christmas cards out in time this year, so if not - Wishing you a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!! I cherish each and every one of you, and value our friendship!! I hope the new year brings you much joy, happiness, good health, success, and prosperity!</div>
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It is good to be back.... for good this time! :) Love and hugs to you all!</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-44694056554557568142013-11-16T13:22:00.001-08:002013-11-16T13:22:20.803-08:00The Good, Bad, and Ugly of this Journey. I'm Climbing out of the Ugly...Well, I did it. I got wayyyyyyyyyyyy off track! And I can't even blame the holidays…. because they haven't even happened yet. Yikes!! One month of binge eating and not caring can really do some serious damage. Up 10+ lbs. :( I say 10+ because it was 10 last week at WI and I'm not going today. I know I should, but I just can't. I can't bring myself to see the new number (and I need rest still). Instead, I made a pact that I would start tracking again, blogging, and go for a walk - TODAY. Tomorrow, will be even more of an on plan day. Baby steps.<br />
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ED (eating disorder) LOVES excuses! Every day I felt a bit worse, and let's see, today it would be helped by Thai…. the next day Mexican…. the next day burger, shake, and fries, etc. Now I was caught in the trap. The trap that yes I started feeling crappy for some unknown reason, but now I'm SURE the food was perpetuating this crappiness and making it even worse. Enough excuses, and I finally dragged myself to urgent care this week. Well, I was exhausted because I was seriously dehydrated. Hmm, all that caffeine I was adding, well that sure didn't help. They gave me a bag of IV fluids and I stayed home the next day and drank electrolyte water and gatorade. I also had a local infection and a bit of a cold. Explains the crappiness. I've been on the antibiotics 2 days now and I am starting to feel a bit better. Taking it easy this weekend for the most part so that I can feel better, get my head on straight, and get back on track.</div>
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Happy Fall! I love saying that. Now if the weather would just get a little bit cooler! Well, I survived the last 2 weeks. I'm sooOO happy that is over. Things all went well for the most part, but I'm worn out. The 3 day meeting was a lot of sitting and eating. And eating and sitting. I did well the first day. Even took a long walk at Seaport Village. But the second day, it was all over. They had amazing food. Not typical catering food, but the Manchester Grand Hyatt Restaurant food! Even a freaking candy bar with all my favorites! I did avoid any alcohol to not complicate matters. But, man, I was hyped up on coffee and espresso beans. Each night I got home around 10pm and then had to work because I had a deadline amongst all this. As soon as the meeting was over Saturday, I went straight to the gym and did a 5K. My WI for that week had me gaining 2.4 lbs. Yikes. I had gained 0.8 lbs the week before. So, I was really worried about what was still to come.</div>
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Sooo very proud of hubby! He hit a big goal, and has lost 52 lbs so far. :) :) He looks good and is catching up to me! Well, it's time to shuffle off to the gym again. Just taking it easy today and catching up on house stuff. TOM has arrived, so that makes the next few days oh so fun. NOT!! :( Just glad it didn't grace me with its presence during the trip and hopefully it will bypass the VA trip as well. I have another all day offsite meeting this week with catered food all day, so will opt to eat breakfast at home and skip the dessert. Need to make this a good week and get back on the losing train!</div>
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I hope you all have an awesome and successful week!!</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-62636272145735732492013-09-15T22:12:00.000-07:002013-09-15T22:12:04.421-07:00Yellow Caution Tape Up - Brutal 2 Weeks Ahead<span style="text-align: left;">Hello All!</span><br />
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How are you on this fine Sunday evening?! Me, I'm beat... exhausted..... toast.... fried... tuckered.... washed up..... spent.... empty...... you get it! I'm officially in the brutal days and weeks of September. I apologize in advance if you don't hear from me much until the end of September! :( We have a big 3 day 15 hour/day work meeting this Thur/Fri/Sat downtown at the Manchester Grand Hyatt. Which will probably be filled with pretty crazy long days leading up to Thursday. Then, I go to Wisconsin for 3 days for work following that. Just hope I can get in some exercise somewhere and stay decently on plan the next 14 days. I've worked too hard to slip and gain a bunch. The reality is, I probably won't lose over these 2 weeks. So, my motto is: Minimize the damage the next 2 weeks.</div>
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Today, I stayed in bed until 9:30am. What???!!!!! Yeah, that's crazy for me. I'm usually out of bed walking the dogs by 7am. I just couldn't get up. When I finally did, I was so out of it and dopey. After an hour or so, I dragged myself to the gym. Was really tired but I don't know what it is about exercise - as soon as I start, all the tiredness is sucked out of me and I'm in athlete mode. :) I ended up doing 20 min fast hill interval walk, 15 min elliptical, then back on the treadmill for another 30 min hill interval walk, followed by an extra 10 minutes so I could finish watching the Chargers game. Yay!!!! They actually pulled it off and WON!! :) Oh man, I was sore when I was done. So what do I do? I go to the strip mall, park at one end, and walk clear to the other side to the grocery store, back to the car. Then the bank, back to the car. Then Starbucks, back to the car. Did I forget that somewhere I said I was freaking tired and SORE!!! Geesh.... I got home and was a vegetable on the couch for an hour before we had to leave again to drive to my nephew's bday dinner. That was nice. It was great to see everyone, been way too long! Was able to avoid the chips, fabulous queso, and margs to stay on plan. I'm learning and it's getting easier to focus on the people and conversation versus the food when eating out. At these events, IT IS NOT JUST ABOUT THE FOOD! :)</div>
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So, for WI this weekend. I was up 0.8 lbs. Not sure what that was totally about, but I could tell I was having fluid issues again this week. Ankles swollen. :( At our offsite meeting Thursday I did indulge in the dessert they served, some incredible caramel apple bread pudding pie thing with creme fraiche drizzle. It was definitely worth all the pts! Oh well, moving on to this week. Hubby lost 1 lb. He's now 1 lb from 50 lbs lost!! So excited for him.</div>
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Well, it's time to get this weary girl to bed. Hope you had a wonderful weekend and aren't having as brutal days of September! Have a fabulous week and be kind to yourself and others. :)</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-60006922619789522372013-09-07T15:03:00.002-07:002013-09-07T15:03:26.813-07:00She Shoots, She Scores!!!! Goal!!!! :)<span style="text-align: left;">Happy Saturday y'all!</span><br />
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Oh my heck it is still freaking hot and humid in San Diego! We've had the AC on 24/7 at home, the car, and at work. Can't wait to see this electric bill!! :( I hear it's supposed to break early next week. Thank Heavens!!! Hope it lasts for awhile. I actually broke out the shorts today! :)</div>
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I can tell you though, I feel so much better right now going through this heat wave and being 60 lbs lighter! YEP, I said 60!! :) I lost that 0.2 lbs last week and then some! 1.6 lbs to be exact. :) Soooo thrilled! So, 61.4 lost since Jan and 70 since last year. I'm also only 2 lbs away from being half way through what I need to lose in total. Plug in Bon Jovi song here.....Woah Ohhhh, I'm half way there!!!! Woah Ohhhhh!!! :)</div>
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I really didn't know what would happen at WI today. TOM is in town so I've eaten more points than normal. I've had way more caffeine then water and I'm retaining fluids like crazy! I did work out a lot this week though. Got 34 activity points which is my most yet! Did 2 5K's last weekend and an extra workout last night. Thank gosh for big industrial fans at the gym!!! Hubby had a great loss too, 1.6 lbs gone!! :) He is so close to being down 50 lbs! T had a great WI too and got her 10%! Soooo happy for you!! You are doing it girl! And J, holy cow, just caught up with her and she is just 13 lbs away from Lifetime GOAL!! Amazing!! It is soo inspiring and encouraging to be around all these folks reaching for their goals and taking charge of their health. Now is the time!!! If you haven't started but want to, it's a great time to join WW. One month free! Let's do it together!</div>
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Also, for those of you interested in joining me and some friends - we will be celebrating my birthday by doing the Iron Girl 5K on December 8th in Del Mar. Looking forward to this! I can give you a discount code for joining our group, so just let me know if you are interested. This one is just for the girls. :)</div>
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Well, not doing too much this weekend.....again! Just surviving the heat, going to the gym, and relaxing. I have a crazy next weekend and 2 weeks after that, so just enjoying the downtime right now.</div>
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Hope your September is off to a good start! September is the new January, a great time to make new commitments and goals or strengthen current ones before the holiday months hit! What will you do different this year to get through the holidays in one piece with less padding added?! :)</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-83104028427729629352013-08-31T20:49:00.002-07:002013-08-31T20:49:45.472-07:00I'm a TEEN Again!!! :)<span style="text-align: left;">Greetings from Florida! Well, not really. But, San Diego has been Florida West this week. Ugh!!! Sooo stinking hot and humid. HUMID and gross! It doesn't sound like it is going to end anytime soon. :( This weather makes me want to do NOTHING! Even the dogs can't stand it. We open the front door, and they are like....Oh HELL No! We'll hold it mom and dad. Yeah, sure you will!</span><br />
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I had a horrible night sleep last night. I stayed up until 12:30am on the computer. I finally dragged myself to bed and the girls heard me, jumped up, and wanted to get into bed. Okay, fine. We climb into bed and I'm in a great sleep, for about an hour. When one of them jumps off the bed. Then starts growling, because she wants to get on the bed! I get up, help her. Back on the bed we go. About 20 mins later, I hear dogs around the neighborhood barking. I'm like, oh great. Please don't hear them. Tooooo late! Both jump off the bed, running around the room, barking and woofing. Back on the bed. Let's jump off again, cause this is fun to keep making mommy get up at 2am! This goes on for another hour. I finally fall asleep, they are calm, and then they hear hubby get up to use the bathroom. Oh heck, off the bed and here we go again! I finally told hubby you deal with them, and I went out on the couch and tried to sleep a little more. At 6am he finally walked them, now they were happy as apple pie! Mommy goes back to bed, only to "oversleep" and be rushed for the 8am grooming appointment. Oy vey! Girls, please let mommy sleep tonight or there will be deadly consequences!</div>
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Sooo, had a GREAT WI today!!! :) I lost 4.4 lbs! Woo hoo! I am 0.2 lbs away from having lost 60 lbs since January. That also pushed me over an interim goal and now I'm a TEEN again!!! I have not seen the two teens since 2008! 217. I like the sounds of that. It is totally doable to be below 200 by the end of the year, which makes me SUPER EXCITED!!! Hubby had a good WI too, down 0.8 lbs. :) I've been mixing up my workouts a bit, 40-60 mins of different interval walking on the treadmill at between 3.0 and 3.5 mph and 2% and 6% incline. I throw in some elliptical for 10 mins when I'm bored. To celebrate today, I headed straight to the gym and did a 5K. Thank gosh for air conditioning and BIG industrial fans!! I have made a pack with myself that when I hit 200, I will start focusing on weight training more. You see, I HATE weights. I don't know why, but I really find it soooOO boring. I can walk for hours, but do weights for 20 mins and somebody shoot me!</div>
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I hope you are enjoying a wonderful holiday and long weekend!! I'm going to be sure to get some more relaxing in, as I have a crazy September coming up with work travel, big offsite meetings, etc. I just want to get through this month in one piece. Then it's time for some fun in October with not 1 but 2 BON JOVI concerts and a conference in Virginia followed by a weeks vacation with hubby to see DC for the first time. It's all good............ :)</div>
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I hope you are enjoying a lovely weekend! It's been a pleasant and relaxing weekend. Finally caught up with my friend Fri night as it had been FOREVER! Sooo good to see her and chat. :) Saturday, I just had a lazy am. Hubby went with me to the WW meeting which was nice. He had a great loss, 2.2 lbs! Yay, him!! I couldn't tell what would happen with me. Had a great week, worked out a lot, but who knew. Well, POO on the scale! Up 0.2 lbs. I was up 0.8 lbs last week post the trip. Was okay with that. I guess up a pound total from traveling is not bad. Think my body is a little delayed at times in gaining or losing. My WW friend had a nice loss though. You go girl!!! :) After the meeting we stopped by to see my friends who had just moved close to where our meeting is. Was sooo great to see them and the new place. It's very cute and cozy, and they are doing very well! :)</div>
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I didn't let the gain derail me, so went straight to the gym. My knee has really been hurting the last few days from PT. The therapist went all out this time and I think it was too much. My knee just ached. In fact my entire leg hurt. In light of this, I thought I would go easy at the gym. I always think that! :) But, then something kicks in and I'm off. I did an interval 5K (up and down hills) at various speeds over 3.0 mph and finished in 57 mins! Then, I walked like 10 more mins. Why?! I was pretty sore after, so took some advil. That helped a lot! Just had a lazy night at home which was nice.</div>
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Slept in a little today and I felt much better. The leg/knee didn't hurt at all. I ran my favorite weekend errand: over to Torrey Hills to hit up Vons, Bruegger's Bagels, Starbucks, and Dirty Dogs. I can get so much done in an hour! I love Bruegger's Skinny Cut Light Smoked Salmon Sandwich. Yum! Add my Ice Grande Nonfat 3 pump Mocha with foam/no whip, and that is a blissful weekend breakfast treat! I am about to head off to the gym. Don't think we'll do a 5K, but that's what I always say. haha! :) Then, hubby and I are going to the movies to see The World's End. It looks very funny. I love British movies. I never watch the VMA's, as I stopped watching MTV like in the early 90's. BUT, I heard there may be an N'SYNC reunion tonight, therefore I gotta check it out. I know, I'm weird. I wasn't a huge N'SYNC fan in the day, but I did go to their concert at the Stadium. Did I just admit that?! That was nuts. Almost got in a brawl with some women. Seriously, security was called! C, do you remember that?! :) I'm safer at a Motley Crue concert than I am N'SYNC! :)</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-27659866298150661142013-08-16T21:27:00.001-07:002013-08-16T21:27:42.526-07:00Challenges, Schmallenges!!!<span style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;">Well, Ugh!! Thank gosh I don't do a lot of travel for work, because it is one thing I have yet to Master in this journey of weight loss and quest for health! For 4 days, all we did was EAT!! Well, and SIT!! Here's how it went:</span><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><span style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;">Monday - TOM arrived, just in time to join me for my travels. :( And it was a BAD one! Extremely bad back pain, very very heavy..... I'm convinced things have changed and I may have a fibroid. It could explain how I became anemic out of the blue. Well, I see the gyn soon so we shall find out. Anyhoo, I get to deal with this on top of EVERYTHING else this week. Boo..... So, up at 3am to leave for a 6:30am flight. Ate a regular breakfast at 4am. Actually felt okay and wasn't too hungry. Ate an apple around 10am. Packed a healthy lunch, but by the time I got to eat it (now 3pm East Coast Time), it was warm. A warm tuna sandwich and yogurt (oopps!) that the TSA made me throw out. At this point, skipped the lunch and checked in to the hotel. What? You have to give me a large chocolate chip walnut cookie? And it's warm?! Why sure, I'm STARVING! Then, met up for dinner with colleagues at 7pm. I actually did pretty well. One bit of appetizer, fish dish with veggies, a few bites of dessert, and a sip of wine. </span><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><span style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;">Tuesday - Was a disaster! Ate breakfast at the hotel at 7am (omelette, potatoes, bacon, toast). Then, got to meeting to only find THEY had ordered breakfast for us. I resisted for several hours, but then complete boredom and overwhelming tiredness set in. The carbs were calling.... Slice of pound cake. Then, it was lunch. Sandwich, chips, pasta salad, cookies, and REGULAR Coke! No one believes in Diet out here! Next, the 3pm slump set in and coffee and a brownie sounded great! At 6pm, it was straight to dinner with 10 people. You know, one of those fancy let's order everything on the menu, wine and cocktails flowing, and desserts all around to share! I was full. No, I was OVERFULL!! NOO, I WAS ILL! A bad bad sign when things are spinning and the stomach is turning. I sooo wish I had my adjustable bed at this moment! Had a horrible night sleep because had to sleep sitting up due to acid reflux, was in pain from being so full, was wide awake because all of my body's energy was being spent trying to keep everything down and digest it!! Ugh, tomorrow can't come soon enough!</span><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><br style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;" /><span style="font-family: Noteworthy-Light; font-size: 15px; line-height: 22px;">Wednesday - Not again, will we have a day exactly like Tuesday! At least this time I learned fairly quick! Usually I repeat Tues for the whole trip and then wonder why I'm up 10 lbs! Sooo tired from no sleep. But, ate a very light breakfast at the hotel. Coffee at the meeting and a 1/2 danish at 11am. At 1pm, time for lunch: small sandwich, water, salad, large cookie. Ignored the candy! 5pm drive back to the hotel. We stopped at Dunkin Donuts on the way back. Ice coffee and a chocolate cake donut. The thought was better than it was! Way too sweet and the donut just wasn't very good. Soo disappointing. :( Skipped the invitation to another dinner out at a fancy restaurant, and went to the gym at the hotel. :) 40 mins of walking. It was painful. But, glad I did it. Except now, it was 9pm and I am hungry! Ordered room service, except they don't have great healthy stuff at 9pm at night! Grilled cheese sandwich and fries. Not a great choice. Gosh this sucks. 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Hope you had a great week and wonderful weekend! It has been soo pleasant here as far as summer's go. I'm not complaining one bit! I love this weather compared to "real" summer heat. Which I may get to experience all too soon. I have to get up at 3am tomorrow because I have a 6:15am flight to Philadelphia for work. UGH!!! Gosh I hate these early flights! I'll be there most of the week visiting several of our different vendors as we get ready for our big clinical trial study starting up in September. It is surely a crazy time right now at work! I'm hoping I can get a little exercise in there and eat reasonably well, but the food is all catered each day and then we have a dinner out every night. Yikes! I'm glad the last 2 weeks have been successful in terms of WI!<br />
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The other big news this week is that my sister got engaged over the weekend! They were at a big outdoor 3-day concert in San Francisco and he asked her there. I haven't heard all the details yet, but I saw the ring and I approve!! :)<br />
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I also figured out why the cravings were soo bad last week. Partly the "nothing fun planned issue" but mostly TOM was coming. :( Of course, it has to be here while I am traveling! :( I've also been having some bad back pain for the last several days. It's different than my "usual" back pain. Right now my back is on fire from my waist up to the middle of my back. I've been icing, taking ibuprofen, and muscle relaxants. I do hope it gets better, or certainly not worse during this trip. A little nervous.<br />
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Well, it is now an hour closer to that 3AM wake up call, so I better hit the hay. Hope you have a wonderful OP week and fabulous Monday! Be good to yourself. :)<br />
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JessicaUCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-62859116792956368652013-08-04T21:21:00.003-07:002013-08-04T21:21:50.347-07:00Where does the time go??!!<span style="text-align: left;">Hello To Y'all!</span><br />
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I can't believe I missed a blog entry last week and now it's the end of this week already. Good grief! Where does the time go?!! I've always said (especially with this weight loss journey) that time flies and it WILL fly, with or without you. So you might as well be on the losing end of things as it continues to go by. :)</div>
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So, to get things up to speed: I stayed the same wt last week. I was okay with that after 2 weeks of good losses. Hubby got within 0.2 lb of his big milestone. Soo close!! He wanted it soo bad. To wait another week, patience..... Last weekend I got the bright idea to do a 5K on the treadmill all at 3.5% incline. The last 15 minutes sucked, as my heart rate was at like 160! I feel uncomfortable when it is that high. But, I did it 2 minutes faster than the formal 5K. Woo hoo!! </div>
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We had several birthdays at work last week, so I was designated Sprinkles Cupcake picker upper. Yikes! Never gone into that store and not bought 1 (or 2 or 6!) for myself. The first run, no problem. Just got 2 for the coworker. In and out. The second run, had to get a dozen for my depart. NOW I wanted one. I did have one that day, and it was freaking awesome. Lemon Meringue Cupcake. Just like the pie! Yum!! Later that day we were having cake as well (oh, and my boss brought in pastries for breakfast!). In a split second, I almost gave into the WHAT THE HECK, just go for it! What saved me was that I looked at the cake and it was from Vons. Yuck! Now if it had been Costco or a bakery, that could have been another story! :) But, I skipped it. :) I had already eaten my breakfast by the time I saw the pastries in the am, so saw no need there. :) We also had a day where there were 10 boxes of bakery donuts. My work is a food fest some weeks! I had been resisting the donuts for weeks and weeks. Finally looked up the points, and it was 10 for one. Hmm, not really worth it. So, I took a 1/4 of a chocolate cake one. Enough for 3 bites. Know what? 2 was ok, because it was not yummy!!! :( So disappointing. But at least I only wasted 2.5 pts and not 10! :)</div>
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I've been pretty busy and stressed with work the last several weeks. 9-11 crazy hours/day, 8 hours of sitting in meetings, too much to do. I long for the good boring days of old! It's going to be this crazy through Sept, possibly Oct. I have to muster up every ounce of energy in me to make it to the gym after work. I've been getting home to eat dinner around 8:30 or 9pm at night. Poor hubby is the single dog parent holding down the fort lately, picking up the slack. I have to travel to Philly for 4 days next week. For MORE meetings and driving to 3 different companies. Sure hope it is not brutally hot or humid.</div>
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So with all this work, stress, and lately not much fun/relaxing on the weekend (house stuff, errands, gym), I am in a RUT! I sooo need a vacation but don't have time to figure it out or then take it before October. Boooo...... I need to find something local and just take a long weekend away from it all. I want to go on a week long spa vacation out of state (like Utah), but that will probably have to wait until the Fall. I've noticed when I get in a rut and don't have anything exciting going on or planned for the future, guess what, all sorts of NOT SO GOOD FOR ME YUMMY FOOD start calling my name! The cravings come back. Everything looks good. I want variety. I want excitement. I want to feel "GOOD". I want a pick me up! I WANT TO EAT!! Helloo over eating and binging! I've been fighting it off the last several weeks, but it keeps coming at me and I keep ducking. Like a video game, asteroids whizzing by! I don't know how long I can keep this up. Really need to book the vacay's!</div>
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So, it was a good WI this weekend. Lost 1.6 lbs. Yay!! :) Wasn't sure how it would be as I felt like I was getting a bout of diverticulitis again this past week. :( Hubby blew past his milestone and lost 1.6 lbs too! :) Soo proud of him!</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-34989945161811747902013-07-20T22:12:00.000-07:002013-07-20T22:12:06.996-07:00Doing the Happy Dance! :) Hello Roaring 20's! :)Happy Weekend to you!!<br />
I hope you all are enjoying a nice weekend. So much going on in our town - from Comic Con, to horse races, to Over the Line tournament. I'm ignoring all of it (except for all the out of town yahoo's I encounter on the road!), and opting to just take it easy this weekend. I have kind of had that "I don't wanna" attitude the last 48 hours. Luckily, I snapped out of it enough to finally get my rear to the gym later today. I've had a great week of working out. Have felt great, no real aches or pains other than the fractured toe from the 5K. I increased my speed to 3.4 mph and incline to 3% this week. Have been doing 35-40 min walks and then 10-15 mins on the elliptical at level 4 five days a week. These increased workouts and 5Ks the last two weekends have really paid off, which I'm thrilled with. I lost 3.8 lbs this week, to give me my 50 lb loss charm! :) That brings the total to 51.4 lbs since January and 61.4 lbs since last year. AND, hellooooo 220's! :) Gosh, I haven't seen you since my wedding in 2010! My doctor was giddy with happiness yesterday. Not to get ahead of myself here, but when I saw that number, I was like, WOW, 199 is not that far! :) I mean, if I've come this far and done 60, 20 feels totally doable and within reach! It is a shorter distance to keep going forward now, than it is to go back!<br />
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I try not to give myself many food rewards as that is one of the reasons we got into this predicament in the first place! But, TOM just ended and I was still craving red meat. Soo, a Habit burger and fries it was tonight for dinner! Dang, it was almost orgasmic. haha! I savored every bite. It was freaking awesome and worth all 27 points! As our leader said today, it better be a party in your mouth to be worth it. It was!<br />
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The last few weeks of this journey have been, um, dare I say... fun?! :) I've actually been enjoying the journey, the process. I like seeing what new things I can do, or fit into. It's like opening a Christmas present every week! This week I climbed the 3 long flights of stairs at work next to my CFO while talking the whole time (and not stopping, or keeling over at the top.....or, opting to take the elevator!). That felt awesome. I have to fly in August for a work trip and I'm not even panicking about not being able to fit in the seat or buckle the seatbelt. Those worries are gone!<br />
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I'm excited and grateful to have you all along on my journey and I'm even more thrilled to be a part of and support and celebrate yours!! Hubby lost 4 lbs this week which brings him oh soooo close to a big milestone. Hoping he gets it next week! Was so happy to hear from a good friend today and she is doing well on her journey. I'm just beside myself for her that she is in a good place and making forward progress. Yay! :) Three other friends are chugging right along on their journey, stepping over pebbles and not letting them become boulders. Ladies, we ROCK!! :)<br />
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I wanted to let you know of 3 upcoming 5Ks I'm thinking of doing and would love to have you join me! It would be great if we had a "team"! They are more for fun then they are about the times. They are: Bad Prom 5k (in October), 80's 5K (November 2nd), and Iron Girl (December 8th). What a great way to celebrate my anniversary (friend's bday too!) and then my birthday. With health and friends! Let me know if you want to join in!<br />
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Alrighty folks, that's enough happiness and celebration for one day. heehee! :) Wishing you a beautiful Sunday and be good to yourself (and others!). Hugs.<br />
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JessicaUCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-60219871771111083132013-07-13T21:42:00.000-07:002013-07-13T21:42:22.192-07:00A Brutal but Satisfying Week........Happy Saturday to you!!<br />
I cannot be more thrilled it is the weekend! I hope you are enjoying the beautiful weather. Oh my aching head this was an absolutely insanely brutal week! :( But, I survived. Work has just become crazy crazy crazy the last few weeks. So many deadlines all at once, too much work and not enough time, too many meetings, vendor dinners, and conflict. Add to that working 12 hour days, eating lunch at 2pm, finding the restroom once a day, and not getting to the gym on regularly scheduled days, and you have got one VERY grumpy girl! Calgon, take me away!!!!! <br />
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But, I got a bit of satisfaction for all my trouble and hard work lately. I finally got my promotion!!! :) Just call me Mrs. Director now. :) I say finally because I was told I was being put up for one about 3 months ago. It just seemed to drag on and on. I tried not to think or worry about it. Politics like crazy were going on. At one point a month ago, I even inadvertently found a document (left on my desk!!) that listed everyone approved for promotions.....but my name was not on it. :( I tried to think positive that maybe there was a reason or that wasn't the final list. I hate being in limbo!! Days went by and I soon pretty much forgot about it. Until Wednesday, when my boss called me out of a meeting to tell me the news, and he hugged me! I think he really had to fight for me, as there is only so much money/people that can be promoted each year. I was very grateful. But, now that I am a Director, it means I get an office in the new building we are moving to in December!! :) I got to go pick it out. Hope I chose right. Couldn't be more happy! No more personal calls talking to drs on the phone about UTI's or yeast infections, where the entire world can hear! Ugh! I think I'm most thrilled about the office! I am nervous though. Because, now I have to be part of the Steering Committee meetings and other many long meetings that include our CSO and other "C" level folks. Hope things can come out of my mouth coherently when needed! :)<br />
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I did manage to get to the gym on Wed and Fri (my normal off days) to make up for what I missed. I had some great workouts. I've been doing about 50 min of cardio now, 5 days a week, and trying to up my speed or incline level every week. I feel great! I got a charm today for the 5K we did last week and I'm looking forward to the formal Blood Bank 5K tomorrow morning. The fruits of that labor paid off this week, as I lost 4 lbs at WI! Yep, I hit another goal, 230! :) I'm only 3 lbs away from getting my 50 lb charm! Cannot wait! :) I feel good in my clothes. I actually look forward to getting dressed in the am and choosing what to wear, instead of dreading the few items I could fit into that make me look like an unmade bed.<br />
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Hubby didn't have such a great week, his first gain since he started. :( But, he's pressing on and not letting it derail him! We are a team, in this together! This has been a lifestyle (not a diet) that we can definitely live with for the rest of our life. We have committed to WW in that it will be a part of our life until the end (6 ft under end, not goal weight end), just as AA is for other folks. But, I'm definitely enjoying the splurges along the way though too! It is not about deprivation, but about incorporation and moderation and finding balance. Wednesday evening I enjoyed the most scrumptious butterfish dinner, a piece of appetizer, skipped the alcohol, and shared 3 small desserts with 8 people. Now that's the way to do it! Enjoy and satisfy your taste buds, without all the points! Friday we had lunch catered at work and I ordered a very yummy shrimp salad. It was so good, I didn't even use dressing. But much to my surprise, dessert was ordered too. A toffee brownie cupcake like thing. I've been resisting all the "extras" at work since I started, so I gave very little thought (internal debate) to this and just had it, enjoyed it. Of course, everything I indulge in, I account for. Gotta keep it real and honest. And, it was worth every bite! :)<br />
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I hope you all are finding satisfaction in your daily lives and if not, put that on your list to try to seek out this week and incorporate! It makes all the difference in the world when working towards a long term goal. Cheers to you and have a fabulous Sunday!<br />
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<br />UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-33013254911127792292013-07-07T21:14:00.000-07:002013-07-07T21:14:07.019-07:00Can I Have Another Day Off, Pleaseeeeee???!!!!<span style="background-color: #e8e8e8; color: #505050; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px;">Hello Ya'll!</span><br />
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This is coming to you from a blurry tired eye slightly sunburned exhausted girl. Who sooooo does not want to go back to work tomorrow! I hope you all enjoyed a very Happy 4th of July and great weekend! Let's see if I can even remember the last 5 days?!</div>
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Wednesday evening I hit the gym for a long workout after work and then grocery shopped for the 4th. Thursday am we spent getting ready for family to come over for a BBQ and fireworks on the evening of the 4th. We paced ourselves with the shopping, picking up, cleaning, etc. But of course, let's throw in steam cleaning the carpets in the am! They looked great, but uh oh, they were damp.......for a long time. Go figure! :) Oh, and a car wash! I'm weird like that. When the cleaning or organizational bug strikes, it's on fire! With all the racing around and being on my feet all day, I earned 4 AP without being at the gym! Wow! As soon as all the people and food arrived, I took a few minutes (more like many) and tracked most everything I was going to eat and figured out how much I could have. It was really yummy food! Cheeseburgers, hot dogs, potato salad, beans, broccoli slaw, fruit, veggies, guacamole and chips, mini cupcakes, and brownie bites. And some Mike's Hard Light. I enjoyed every bite of everything! Things went as planned for the most part. Didn't end up having alcohol though. But, did have a few more chips/guac and an extra brownie bite. Wanted some more, but I really was full. All in all, it was a 68 point day. Holy cow, I've never eaten all my daily points and almost the 49 weekly in one sitting. I'm glad I saved the points! The hubby on the other hand, he used most of his weekly points LAST Saturday which left him with only a few for the 4th. Poor planning! :( But, he did okay. :) After the fireworks, I had to come in and do some work until 1am because I was taking Friday off but my co-worker needed a document. Sooooo tired.......</div>
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Friday I went to the gym and did a hard workout. Over the last week, I've increased my speed to 3.3 mph and 3% incline for 30 minutes. I've then also added the elliptical for 20 minutes at level 4. Going to try to move it to level 5 next week. Then, we met our friend at the movies. That was nice. We shared some light popcorn which was tasty. Since we had WI the next morning, we opted to eat dinner at home (which consisted of yummy leftovers!).</div>
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Saturday we went to WW meeting and WI. Hubby went with me because he got his 10% award! :) He also lost 2.8 lbs. Even he was shocked! So proud of him! I wasn't sure what would happen for me, but wanted a loss of anything. I got it. :) 0.8 lb loss. I'll take it! Then, off to the gym for another long hard workout. Later I met my friend for dinner and that was so great to catch up. Since I had had so many burgers and hot dogs the last several days, I opted to not have steak at the steakhouse. :( Bummer. But dinner was good. And we did well OP, considering we were there for 5 hours with a bread basket in front of us! She's also doing great in her weight loss!! Got home late again and crashed hard.</div>
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Which brings me to today, Sunday. I could not fathom going into the gym AGAIN. So, hubby and I went to Liberty Station on the water and walked 3.61 miles! It was great to be outside. But, it was warm and sunny! I wanted to do a trial walk of the 5K I'll be doing next weekend. Yep, no problem. :) But from the sun, wind, heat, etc. my eyes are dry, tired, bloodshot, and ready to close!</div>
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It was a very nice weekend but now it is time to put this weary girl to bed. Because, I did poor planning, and hubby took tomorrow off (but not me)! Wishing you all a spectacular week and Happy Monday! Cheers to Health and Happiness!</div>
UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-48911291907623549522013-06-30T18:36:00.002-07:002013-06-30T18:36:31.586-07:00Sometimes You Just Gotta Go with the Flow.....<br />
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Hope you had a great weekend and stayed cool wherever you were! Holy moly it was in the 90's at our house. Yuk. Sooo not a hot person. But, I will say that being 53 lbs lighter from last summer did make a difference. I was not one giant dripping water faucet sweat ball! :) And, I was able to work out during it. Sooo happy we also put in the air conditioning late last summer. Sure made sleeping better.<br />
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So, first up is WI. Lost 2.4 lbs. :) That puts me at hitting another mini goal! Spoke with my leader Marie about my varying WI's lately. We looked back over my tracking. My points level is fine, but I need to get more of the healthy guidelines in. I don't tend to have any dairy more than 1 or 2 times a week. I don't get 8 glasses of water (more like 4). I get 2 fruits, but probably 1-3 vegetables. I also sporadically get the oil in. Ugh, this is going to be tough. Those aren't some of my favorite things, so I would rather "spend" my points on a dessert, or larger portion size for lunch/dinner. Going to work on the dairy this week. Wish me luck! I've also been doing the same exercise routine for awhile, so it was suggested I switch it up a bit. I'm such a creature of habit, I like my routines!<br />
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I had a big NSV (non-scale victory) that I keep forgetting to mention. When I was at my highest weight last year, I had back pain when I slept. So bad, that I would toss/turn, get up every hour, or finally get out of bed at 6am because I couldn't take it anymore. I was very sleep deprived. Strangely, the back pain only happened when I would lie down. As soon as I was upright, life was good. So I spent a lot of money on a new and adjustable bed. It seemed to help for a bit, but then after losing 50+ lbs, the back pain was back! :( Huh? I'm confused!! It was horrible, constant, and every drug under the sun wouldn't make it go away. I didn't know if it was my scoliosis, herniated disk, weight, or what. I was getting desperate. But then, almost 2 weeks ago, I adjusted the bed so I'm basically in a zero gravity position and guess what... No Pain!! It's not a great sleeping position, because I love sleeping on my side, but it works for now. So happy to not wake up every hour or stiff as a board in the morning. :)<br />
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This weekend I had to kind of go with the flow. I had plans pretty much the whole weekend and we were having a heat wave! I woke up Saturday am with the most absolute worst sinus headache, stuffy nose, and earache. I thought, ok, just go to WI and then come home and rest. It got worse at the meeting, so I couldn't wait to get home. Rested most of the day, took meds, and by 5pm I was feeling a bit better. So, I went to the gym. Actually had a GREAT workout! But, by the time I got home and had dinner, I was now dealing with stomach issues. It was like I got a 24 hr flu. Hubby was even sick! We both called it a night and crashed early. I was ok in the am, so went to the gym. But, had to cut the gym short. Wonky stomach was back in a big way. Wasn't sure I was going to make it to see the friends today and pretty much waited to the last minute. But stomach calmed down. Had a very nice visit, and now home resting again. Sometimes, you gotta take not just each day, or meal, but each moment, one at a time.<br />
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Hubby lost 0.2 lbs, but it was enough to give him his 10%!!! Yay hubby, what a great job! And a friend hit a great milestone too! :) And, so proud of another friend that has started on her journey! Here's to the journey to health and living with ease and peace!! :) Have a great week and stay cool!<br />
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-14000839973318049872013-06-23T23:16:00.000-07:002013-06-23T23:16:55.669-07:00Riding the Roller Coaster of Weight Loss (and Life!)<span style="background-color: #e8e8e8; color: #505050; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 16px;">Hello!</span><br />
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Happy Summer and hope you enjoyed a lovely weekend! Holy cow it has just been beautiful here and it's getting warmer. Not so thrilled with that part. I'm a 70s girl, not 80s or 90s. Yuk! I had a pretty jam packed weekend, so not much rest. I did have 2 great workouts. Although, I bought new shoes and man did I get the sore feet and blisters after today! ;( Hoping I can adjust them and they'll be better tomorrow.</div>
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So, had a feeling WI wasn't going to be great yesterday. My ankles have really been swelling even with taking the diuretic! I had a feeling I was retaining. Up 2.2 lbs. Yep, so I guess this is how it's gonna be. Riding the weight loss roller coaster. Up 2, up a little more, down a huge amount, repeat. So weird. So, I was thinking today that I need to come up with some new reward goals. It could be awhile before I hit scale number goals, but that doesn't mean I'm not making progress or doing the right things. So, I am thinking of goals like: increased exercise and maintained for a week; able to fit into a size lower clothing; 1 or 2 activity points hit on my non-formal workout days for a week; walking a 5K, etc. I think having those things on the list will help.</div>
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I was so happy for my friend who reached some big goals yesterday! Hubby is also doing well. He lost 2.2 lbs, cause he gave them to me!! Haha! :) He is so close to a goal and huge milestone. So excited for him. But men stink! :) I have to kill myself practically 5 times a week to lose (I mean gain!) anything. He has not formally worked out yet and is not hungry one bit ever, and he loses every week.</div>
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But speaking of gaining and losing. I had good thinking time today while I was driving to see my friend, and one thing that popped in my head was the weight I was on my wedding day, and the weight I was when I entered the program last year. The bad thing was I had gained 65 lbs in 2 years. Ugh, not good! But then, you know how people always say "the weight didn't come on quickly, so you can't expect it to come off quickly". I'm usually like, yeah yeah yeah, I know. But then it dawned on me.....It took me 2 years to gain 65 lbs, so why do I think or expect it to come off in a year or less?! If it takes anything less than 2 years, then I'm doing good!! :)</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-100470023771697412013-06-15T20:31:00.001-07:002013-06-15T20:31:46.604-07:00Now THAT was a Good WI!! :) On the Road Again.......Hello!<br />Happy Saturday to you, and Father's Day to all the dads, grandpa's, and doggie daddy's! What a crazy week I had. So glad to
have no big plans this weekend really and just rest, do the normal
routine, and some house stuff. Work kicked my butt last week with
big deadlines, long hours, frustration, and being tired. I have a feeling it is
going to be like this for awhile. I need to get more sleep then! This
week I stuck to the WW plan, like I do every week, but I did
eat a few less weekly points. I also started back on my diuretic, as
my ankles were just out of control swollen to the point that my legs
were hurting. I hate taking it because I feel dizzy and just not all
there, but I know it helps. Just did the low dose though. I got in a
bit more water this past week, but I'm still way off the mark. Ugh,
it's soo hard for me! I love water when I workout, but that's about the
only time. This diuretic dries me out even more, so I seriously need
to drink, drink, DRINK! I had some good workouts. Gave myself a pass
on one day because my body felt like it was hit by a truck! Slowly it
got better, and by today I did a really hard fast workout and shaved
another 45 seconds off my mile. Now doing 2.5% incline at 3.2 mph, and
about an 18 min mile. Yay!<br /><br />Today I cleaned out half of my closet
and got rid of the items that were too big or that I was keeping, but
are totally out of style. I kept one of the largest tops and pants as a
reminder, but all the rest are gone. I needed to make room for some
new clothes. :) Yep, I will not b*^$h and moan ever again about gaining
weight while sticking to the plan. Thanks so much for all your
encouragement, reassuring words, and weight loss words of wisdom!! It
helped a lot. I learned a lesson these past few weeks. The body is
unpredictable, and if anything it is a slow "learner". It will do what
it is going to do and regulate when it is ready, but keep to the plan
and you will come out ahead at some point. :) Cause I lost 6.8 lbs this
week!!!!!!! I was shocked. I knew I was losing this week, because my
clothes finally felt looser, not annoying or tight. But wow! I'm very
close to another milestone goal and I can practically touch it! :)
Feels great. So happy to be back in the 30's again. Down 42.3 lbs since Jan, and 52.3 since last year! Hubby was so proud
of me that I came home to a sweet card and a gift card for more music
to power my workouts. :) I was also proud and happy with myself that I
was able to persevere and stay on track when I was soo frustrated. I
have not binged or used food to cope in over a year now. It almost feels
like a long distant friend that I'm losing touch with. And I'm okay
with that! Tackling one hurdle at a time is the name of the game.<br /><br />Hubby
lost a 1/2 lb and is so close to his next milestone, 10% loss! So happy
for him. We are a great team. :) I am thinking of signing up for a 5K
soon, but it needs to be right for my first one. Not too early, near
the water/cool breeze, etc. Picky, Picky! haha! :) I think I'd like to
do one down at Liberty Station because it's flat, near the water, has
restrooms, etc. So, that is on my list of goals. If you'd like to join
me and keep me company, or meet one of your goals, let me know!<br /><br />Here's
to a great rest of the weekend and hoping you all are doing well and
enjoying summer! <span id="yui_3_8_1_20_1371352936776_401">I'll leave you with some motivational thoughts: </span><i id="yui_3_8_1_20_1371352936776_384"><span id="yui_3_8_1_20_1371352936776_401"><i id="yui_3_8_1_20_1371352936776_400">You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there. </i></span>Rule your mind or it will rule you.</i>. :) Thanks again for all your support, it means the world
and helps me stick to this journey!<br /><br />Cheers!UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-6901839914693581622013-06-08T23:12:00.001-07:002013-06-08T23:12:37.910-07:00Going in the Wrong Direction!Hello out there!<br />Happy Saturday to you all. I'm soo happy it's the
weekend. :) The rest of this week was much calmer. I went to the dr
yesterday for strange sharp chest pain on one side that came on all of a
sudden when I breathed deep all week. As for the pain, I was pretty
sure it wasn't heart or lungs because I continued to workout all week
and didn't keel over. The true test! Ha! :) Turns out it was
Chostochondritis or more specifically Tietze Syndrome. Huh?! It is
inflammation of the cartilage that joins the ribs to the breastbone.
Tietze syndrome (sounds like a bug!) is accompanied by a localized
swelling at the painful area (the junction of the ribs and breastbone).
It can be caused by a respiratory infection (which I had possibly very
minor symptoms of), otherwise it is of unknown origin. Great, add
another strange medical ailment to the list! I'm a new doctor or
medical student's dream. :) I am feeling better now, so at least it was
short lived and I didn't waste my weekend at urgent care.<br /><br />At the
drs, they weighed me, but I declined to look. I only go by the WW
scale. But, the WW scale has become my red double horned beast with a
pitch fork and wicked smile! I was really wanting a loss at WI today,
after the "unknown" gain last week. Honestly, I didn't know how it was
going to go. Again, I had this inkling that it would be a small loss if
any. Gained 0.2 lbs! What? Are you freaking serious??!! Okay weight
loss Gods, what is going on? I was not happy. It put me in a bit of a
foul mood to be going backwards. I mean, I could totally be okay with
it if I knew it was because I was splurging or enjoying some great food
or dessert or drink, but I'm not! I've avoided the alcohol, the
cookies, the donuts, the cake, the catered lunches at work. I've even
had longer cardio workouts lately (i.e. 3 miles!). Soo, time to analyze
the situation.<br /><br />I am being tested!! Kidding. A few things went
through my head. 1) My ankles have been quite swollen lately so I think
I'm eating too much salt, and I know I don't drink enough water. That
will be my number 1 goal for this week! 2) Am I not eating enough?
Perhaps. This one is always hard for me to figure out. I eat all of my
daily points, usually half of the weekly points, and don't convert
activity points to food points. It was working for me, I'm not usually
hungry, but now I'm confused. 3) Our dinner delivery service has been
on maternity leave so we went to a new service. They are individual
meals with the nutrition on them, low-carb, from a fitness place. Could
the nutrition labels be wrong?? 4) I've been eating out a bit more at
mom and pop type places (that don't have the nutrition available), but I
order healthy the best I can and tend to overestimate on the points (or
so I think!). I'm in a quandary. I will not have a third week of gain
you scale devil....I will defeat you!<br /><br />Started by going to the
gym this afternoon and had a fast paced long workout. It felt good.
Cut 20 seconds more off my 1 mile time. Hi-ya karate chop evil scale
devil, you are toast!<br /><br />Last week at our meeting, a woman who lost
80 lbs spoke. It was perfect timing, because I sooo needed to hear
this. She said, the first time she did WW, she had lost 30 lbs (needed
to lose about 50). One week she gained 5 lbs. That threw her into a
funk and derailed her, started the spiral down and weight back up. When
she got around to doing WW the second time, she now needed to lose 80
lbs. She said, gaining 5 lbs puts you still closer to your goal and
further from the starting gate. It's only 5 lbs. It's a week, two,
maybe 3 weeks of setback. Let everything fly out the window and it's a
year or two of setback, and further from the starting gate to goal.<br /><br />This
is keeping me motivated in a time like this. Because in the past, I
would have thrown the towel in and said ef''it, if I'm going to gain I
might as well eat all the good stuff!<br /><br />Hubby lost 1 lb for a total of 30 lbs! Excited for him, I can notice his loss. :)<br /><br />Enjoy a fabulous Sunday!UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-89644564414253861442013-06-04T23:05:00.001-07:002013-06-04T23:05:24.098-07:00The Last 6 Days...But, Today was a New Day! :)Well, today was the first day that I was able to come up for air in about 6 days. It's been a crazy 6 days at that. It was a yuck week for too many people I know. From losing pets to pets being hospitalized. Then, I spent several days working on things for P's Celebration of Life on Saturday. Our friend C, who also has "C", was organizing most of it in conjunction with P's husband. I had emailed everything I needed to do to C but hadn't heard back. Then, she called Thurs night to let me know she was in the hospital and may not get out in time. Oh heck! I was very worried about her, had no idea how I was going to take over last minute because work was insane and we had a meeting offsite Friday. I was stressed. Then Friday all heck broke loose at work, fires to put out, and I had to leave for the meeting. Ugh! I could feel my blood pressure rising. We got back and I stayed at work until 7pm, on a Friday night! :( No fun! I was exhausted. I still had things to do for Saturday, and figure out the plans for Sunday-getting to the play American Idiot downtown in the middle of the Rock and Roll Marathon and buying presents for the family birthday dinner Sunday night.<br />
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-17921056399416277892013-05-25T23:18:00.001-07:002013-05-25T23:18:09.985-07:00Goodbye 40's, Hello 30's! :) Yay for the long weekend!Happy Memorial Day Weekend to you all! First, thank you to all of you
have served, are serving, or have lost someone who has served. We honor
and remember each of you!<br /><br />Last week was a loonnnnnnng week. So
it seemed. It was a decent week but for some reason I woke up 3 days in
a row at 5am. WHY????!!!!!! Even did it again this morning, on a
Saturday! Ugh, hope this is not a new trend! Soo, I'm a wee bit
tired. Have plans to see several movies this weekend, catch up with
some friends, do errands, and definitely get some workouts in. I hope
you all are enjoying your weekend so far!<br /><br />I had a nice surprise
of a weigh in today. I honestly didn't expect much since TOM was in
town. I always feel so yuk then, so I really can't tell if I've lost or
gained. But, I lost 3.6 lbs!!! :) That put me out of the 240's and
into the 230's, 239.6 to be exact! :) So, down a total of 38 lbs since
January and 48 lbs since last year. Wow! It feels good! Hubby had a
great weigh in too, down 3 lbs for a total of 27 lbs. :) Friends had
good weigh in's today too and I was soo excited to welcome a dear friend
back! You go girl, you can do it!! :) This is so fun to have so many
of us on this journey to health, and succeeding! <br /><br />I celebrated
with a friend today for her birthday and decided to indulge in Sprinkles
Cupcakes - only 1, Chocolate Peanut Butter. :) I ate that thing sooo
slow, savored every bite, and it was perfection!! :) But oh heck, I
actually kind of feel sick now. No, this can't be!! Perhaps my body
can't handle this much sugar?! I'm still glad I spent all 15 points on
it, cause that was a worthwhile point hog! haha! :) Gotta have some
food enjoyment in life on this journey! :)<br /><br />Okay, time to put this tired girl to bed. Enjoy your weekend!UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-78954096268099234342013-05-19T15:00:00.001-07:002013-05-19T15:00:36.343-07:00Made it Through the Week................Hi Everyone!<br />
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I miss my friend "P". But, as the days went on, I was able to work through the anger, the sadness, the questioning, and come more to acceptance and understanding. I am also happy to say that we will be having a small celebration of life for her at her house with her husband in a few weeks, so that gives me peace and a sense of closure. Her husband also finally reached out to me, which I know had to have been extremely hard. Each day will get a little easier....for all of us.</div>
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I kind of fell off the wagon this past week with eating vegetables. Went for more the carbs, processed foods. Although, I did pretty good on the water! I had some good workouts at the gym. Even made a personal best of breaking the 20 min mile! I'm a pretty slow walker (short, short legs, short stride!), so that was huge to be 19 min! :) I also had to climb several flights of stairs at work and friend's houses this past week and noticed it didn't even phase me. No gasping for air at the top. :) Yay!!!</div>
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UCANDOITJMBhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15113787915248641641noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6453552434723502943.post-7053562029994513232013-05-14T23:19:00.000-07:002013-05-14T23:19:02.063-07:00Soooo Many Things Running Through My Head and Body........Well, the last 24 hours have rocked me to my core. I'm sick to my
stomach. I'm numb. I'm anxious. I'm sooo horribly sad. I'm angry. My
mind can't grasp the new reality. I have so many questions that will go
unanswered. I have regret in that I didn't do more, wasn't there more. I
have guilt for feeling angry and sad, because maybe this is what she
wanted. I have fear because this was exactly my nightmare of how I would
never want things to happen. How does someone's 40+ years of life come
down to just this. Life can be so cruel and yet everyday is a gift to be
grateful for. I haven't had this many emotions running through me in a
very long time.<br /><br />My friend/co-worker "P" was diagnosed with Stage
IV breast cancer last year. I knew it didn't sound good. We both worked
on Cancer Clinical Trials for our job. But, from day 1 she fought and
never let me think otherwise. She was so stoic. She had just started a
new job when she was diagnosed. She continued to work thru all the
radiation, surgery, and chemo. She even worked overtime! She sold her
house, had a new house built, and moved. Even brought me her outdoor
patio furniture! She only took 2 months off at Christmas when she
needed full time oxygen. But, then she got better. Went back to work,
started exercising, went to plays with me, and
visited friends who also had cancer. She was always very concerned about
my issues and well being, as I was in a bad place right when she was
going through all of this. I couldn't be there for her as much as I
wanted to be, which bothered me. She then had the follow up scan in Mar,
and got news she didn't hope for. It had spread more. They ordered a
2nd treatment of chemo. She really really didn't want this. Out of all
the issues with having "C", her biggest bummer was losing her hair. She
was soo devastated about that. But I got her the name of a great wig
place and hair dresser that specialized in medical hair loss (because
unfortunately I have several other friends going through "C" as well).
She was much more relaxed. Her hair had just grown back from the
previous treatment, and now she was going to have to lose it again. This
was the first inkling that I got, a few months ago, that she was sad
and really didn't want to do this. But she would. I got a call from her 2
weeks ago saying she needed to sell our play ticket because a friend
was giving her the opportunity to use her cabin that same weekend. I
could tell it was something she really wanted to do, needed to do, with
her husband. I found someone to buy the ticket, texted her, and she was
so grateful. I said to have a great time at the cabin! A few days later I
texted her to say hi and have fun. I didn't hear from her. Okay. A few
days went by and now I was thinking this was odd. That is not like her.
Maybe she's busy getting ready for the trip. So, I opted to wait until
Mon after the trip to text again and say I hope she had fun and when
could we meet so I could give her the ticket money. Again, days went by.
This was really not like her. I had this feeling something was wrong. But I
didn't think "C", strangely I thought maybe they got in an accident. I
watch too many crime shows. Then, our mutual friend who also has "C"
(and owns the cabin) called, texted, and FB'k me yesterday at work. She
didn't say it was urgent, but to call her. So, I waited until I was home last
night.<br /><br />She was beside herself and crying. She wanted to know if I
knew that "P" had passed away. I screamed, was shaking, felt numb.
What?! I said I had been trying to get a hold of her post the cabin
trip. I was soo confused. She was "ok". Our friend said well, she never
made it to the cabin. She got admitted to the hospital for severe pain,
chemo started immediately, and she passed away two days later. She was
already cremated, no service. All this was last week!!! "P"s husband
just called the friend yesterday to tell her, after the friend had texted her yesterday am. Just saying this all again
makes me feel sick. "P's" videos sit next to my tv awaiting their return.........<br /><br />Enter the demons of binge eating lying in wait....to be continued tomorrow.<br />
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Well, tomorrow is Monday......Again....... I am so looking forward to a day off in a few weeks. I just realized I haven't taken a vacation in a year (and that really wasn't a vacation!). I feel the need to possibly start planning one, for next year. Just need to have something to look forward to and get excited about. Hoping we will be very close to our goal weights by then too. :) :) Maybe we will squeeze in a mini break in the coming months for some R&R at our special cabin getaway.</div>
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